I LOVE YOU – episode 14

We had sex that night. It was my first, but am not sure it hadizat’s. I couldn’t tell because of the relatively dark room, and she woke up earlier and might have taken care of any blood stains.

Hadizat woke me up at around 8am that Saturday morning. I was reluctant to stand up, wanting to sleep longer, hoping the deed of the previous night should have been a dream. But it was not, with hadizat smiling brightly in front of me.

I couldn’t say much, “good morning” was it.

She gave me a new toothbrush and a towel to go and shower, but I refused.

I rejected the breakfast she offered too, and went back to campus.

I just got to my room, took to my bed, staring blankly at the ceiling, thinking of what I have done.
Different thoughts came to my mind,. Creating fear.

“what if she gets pregnant?”
“what if she had STD?”
“God must be angry, oh! I have sinned!!”

Some minutes later, a message entered my phone, it was from hadizat. It read thus: “ I love you”. I couldn’t reply the message. Evidently she doesn’t know what love is, “this is lust” I told myself. I couldn’t think straight.

I tried calming myself down, that it was alright but I knew it wasn’t. even tom knew something was wrong, but I couldn’t tell him, I am pastor k!.

Suddenly the thought came, “ didn’t you enjoy it?”. I wanted to smile but on remembering “ thou shall not fornicate!”,  I put my hands on my head.

I decided to call blessing and tell her what was going on. The phone rang, and she picked immediately.

Me: ahnahn!! Were you waiting for my call?
Blessing: (she laughed ) no o, I was playing subway surf. Do you know I made an high score of 3.99 million?
Me: eh! Na cheat u dey use?
Blessing: see this guy oo,I resemble you? I be boss! Wetin be your own high score?
Me: 388,000
Blessing: well you try sha. ..but I don’t think discussing subway surf is why you called me. Hope nothing, am seeing masquerade in the afternoon oo.
Me(stammering)( I couldn’t bring myself to tell her) uhm! How was your EEE 271 test that you were preparing for when I called last?
Blessing: fine jare. Any test yet?
Me: no, but soon
Blessing: pls call me later, extra class things.

I hanged up the call. I couldn’t tell her. I can’t afford to lose hat smile on her face. She had always comforted me in hard times, hoping I’d become Mr. perfect for my Ms perfect.

But here I am, being a jerk! Having illicit affairs with a girl, risking the feasibility if my dreams.

When class resumed, I had gotten over my regret, and had even come to terms with it. We continued our friendship, infact, we were practically dating. The pastor title my classmates called me was lost. Now, I have hadizat.

Some weeks after the big event(sex), I just got back from a test of an elective course( hadizat doesn’t offer that elective- SEP 001). A message entered my phone, it was from her. I eagerly opened it, it read thus:……………………………….